I may smile and be nice to you. But I could also fake a smile to you.
Yes, I'm an ordinary girl but I do what I like and don't care what others might say.
People come and go. So I have to let go of this.
Not forgetting how I love pikachu so much! Their ear just look like a bunny and the two red cheeks make pikachu so adorable! To be honest, I don't watch Pokemon show. I just love it when I come across this cute yellow thing. I admit I can't leave without them when I sleep.
♥ Sunday, May 30, 2010 @ 5/30/2010 11:04:00 AM
well ,
maybe i will mia already .
bye .
♥ Friday, May 28, 2010 @ 5/28/2010 09:27:00 PM
went out with baobei today .
enjoying myself ,
but
thennnnnnnnnnnnnnnn
actually my mood not really good .
because ,
my throat have blood clot inside .
the feeling is super suffering .
brain will numb everyday .
stomach too !
cant imagine right ?
having a bad scream yesterday night .
and i dont wanna say .
it so suffering .
i really feel like go and die ,
forget everything .
but whenever i think of my
family ,
friends ,
baobei ,
and someone ,
i will try to calm myself .
even though i cant stop ,
i will use scream .
maybe i screamed too much yesterday ,
lack to today i have blood in my throat...
sometime i really want to make my life changes .
like this ,
i wont
suffer anymore ,
i will have
confidence ,
i can
share my thoughts easily whenever i want ,
and be
happy always .
BUT
what i done also no use too .
screaming and shouting ,
is
USELESS .why am i like this.......
♥ Monday, May 24, 2010 @ 5/24/2010 06:59:00 PM
it happen again .
the strange and scary moment i had .
yes ,
like the nightmare..
something keep making my brain stop working .
the monsters MONSTERS again !
i hate it .
i had cried in the toilet ,
trying to stop imagine it again .
but it wont work .
i hate having this kind of thing .
my heart will like going die like this !
it so 痛苦 !
nobody will understand my feelings...
i am getting stress already !
my mid-year exams not really good...
trying so hard ,
yet i deproved more !
whatever it is ,
if i really cannot score a good marks for n level .
i dont know what happen already !
i hope i could pass and move up to higher nitec
or maybe sec5N !
argh .
gonna stop here .
cant bear with the feelings!!!
♥ Sunday, May 23, 2010 @ 5/23/2010 10:05:00 PM
我生病了, am i going to die..? i always no energy..我突然觉得头晕...
i suddenly feel like fainting...
我觉得我从没有在那里浮动...
i feel like i am floating from no where...
我不希望它发生...
i don't want it to happen...
好吧,我在这结束...
okay i shall end here...
再见...
goodbyes...
我想你!♥-------------------------------------------Anyway ,went to changi naval base today .last day for admission .took lots of photos ,and will upload it on facebook .it was extremely fun there !
♥ Saturday, May 22, 2010 @ 5/22/2010 11:41:00 AM
♥ Friday, May 21, 2010 @ 5/21/2010 08:31:00 PM
烦 !
担心这个担心那个..
人生 is something which you can
envy ,
worry ,
concern ,
confuse ,
and lots more .
sometime i was thinking ,
if i am a spirit which i could go where and where ,
without people 关 !
it would be better !
but until you be spirit after a long time ,
you will wish to be back human !
人生就像一出戏 , 所以必须面对...
let it be !
我是一个人的灵魂 .
D:
anyway ,
went to watch SHREK4 the final chapter .
comedy lai de .
must catch it!!! :D
♥ Monday, May 17, 2010 @ 5/17/2010 12:38:00 PM
Short Version of
"This Is Me"
I've always been the kind of girl
That hid my face
So afraid to tell the world
What I've got to say
But I had this dream
Right inside of me
I'm going to let it show
It's time
To let you know
To let you know
This is the real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be now
Gonna let the light
Shine on me
Now I found
Who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me
Do you know what it's like to feel so in the dark
To dream about a life where you're the shining star
Even though it seems
Like it's to far away
I have to believe in myself
It's the only way
This is the real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be now
Gonna let the light
Shine on me
Now I found
Who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me
♥ Sunday, May 16, 2010 @ 5/16/2010 03:56:00 PM
150510 , saturdayokay ,
got to say about where i went yesterday :)
yesterday 6plus then leave house
and go and celebrate my grandma's birthday .
missed the cutting of cake ,
but i still enjoy much .
hmms ,
after finish eating at a hawker centre ,
alot flies came !
one fly still at my hair LOLS !
then my cousin help me make it .
very disgusting siah .
eat eat eat ,
then got flies !
after that ,
we went out and went back to grandma's house :)
played ,
chat ,
watch cousins play majong .
quite fun huh .
and my brother also tried to play !
hahaha .
later ,
played cards .
never play much anyway ,
because busy texting xD
11 + ,
went to eat supper .
phone had flat at 12.20am !
argh ,
so sians .
laughs .
then later reached home at 1am .
charged my phone and check my messages .
cousin had asleep
and baobei had asleep too D:
eeks .
then bo bian ,
text baby awhile
and off my phone at 2.40am like this .
watched tv till 4.30am
and went to lala land :)
guess what ?
i dream again !
LOL .
----------------My Dream----------------
the day we escaping from doomsday !
omgosh ,
its so messy
when everyone was rushing to take transport
and head to changi airport .
for me ,
i rush
and is the first one to reach .
but my parents and brother havent reach yet !
they told me to buy tickets first
but i wasted my journey ,
because i never bring my passport !
argh .
then i called them
and rushed them to be quick .
as the plane will fly at 3am .
which now the time is 2.57am !
3mins to go ,
and i thought they couldn't make it .
hmms ,
after boarding it ,
my dream faded..-.-
--------------------------------------------------------------
woke up and went to toilet
and went back to sleep again at 11am plus .
--------------------------------------------------------------
*this time the dream is super short and like no meaning..*
went shopping with friends ,
chat along the way ,
something happen which idk what happen !
and then we suddenly changed to another place .
cousins came too .
and then my dream just gone.....-.-"
NO MEANING !
----------------END OF MY DREAM-------------------
Okay thats it .
burbyes readers .
♥ @ 5/16/2010 02:20:00 AM
omgosh !
facebook keep sending everybody the disgusting video .
which i wanna ewwww....
whatever ,
dont care liaos .
not my fault anyway !
alright get to my dream .
a bad dream i had dreamt again .
this time round its not ghosty time
but its a dream that make me feel like dying
and suffering badly !
cant believe i will dream of this .
alright ,
whenever i came across zombies and bloods ,
my mind start to like anyhow think .
what i do is i will shout and scream !
so i will like suffering very badly
which i dont know how to explain it .
no one will know how much the pain is .
so i dream until i in school .
was in computer lab
but dont know somehow it just change to like a shopping centre ,
which sell clothes all this .
teacher were teaching us how to buy clothes
and its a must buy items -.-
my uniform or whatever thing dont know what happen ,
just tore .
and i got to use shorts ,
and cover myself ?
ermm ,
look weird o.o .
then after that ,
teacher start to ask who wanna buy clothes ,
then i shouted me me me !
all my classmates was like looking at me with a shorts covering me...
when i ask if i can wear this clothes till end school ,
the teacher straight answer me "NO" !
then i was like ,
"WHAT ?"
because i cant keep wearing shorts or what study what..
and the school going ends too..
when all had left the room when i was in the changing room ,
the teacher lock me inside !!
i scream like hell siah as the teacher off the lights and air conditions..!!
i was so afraid ,
then one of my classmate which is jh ,
asked me outside ,
said what happen to me .
which he seem dont know anything ;o ?
then i asked him to help me call teacher back ,
the teacher run in like ZOMBIE !!!
straight use hanger
and beat me painfully !
i cant believe teacher can beat student !!!
then i was like so angry and scare !
wanna wake up from my dream but was like ,
CAN'T ?!!
while i wake up ,
my heart beat super fast !
totally !
and cant even breathe properly as well !
i hate the feeling !
i hate the suffering kind !
its so damn hurting !
alright need to stop .
got to calm myself too .
while typing this ,
my mood was like DOWN liaos..
BYE !
♥ Friday, May 14, 2010 @ 5/14/2010 08:28:00 AM
having a terrible nightmare .
its just wont stop if i wake up
and sleep back .
so had been awake since 7:40am .
i thought i could sleep later as it is not a school day .
but a nightmare had ruin everything !
the nightmare goes like this...
yes its a saturday morning ,
dad(which is not my real dad)
was going to work near east coast ,
constructing area .
during the journey ,
every road we drive pass was totally quiet .
until a time ,
our car lost of control !
we were shocked and hoping we will be alright .
two police cars drive pass us ,
which it seem nothing happen :o
mostly ,
we are going to crash into cars .
cant handle the situation that time .
finally ,
we got to drive up a slope...
our car went back to normal !
and it was like wow ?
finally reach the destination during the long journey of shocking scene !
my "dad" went to work at the construction area ,
while i told him if i can go meet my friends at east coast .
and he had agree !
so ,
got to take transport by myself right ?
yea .
before moving off to east coast .
i need a toilet .
so...this is what i meant the scariest part i have never wanted !
the toilet is totally
spooky !!
the light just went on and off .
wow ,
like very dramatic huh ?
when i went in ,
i decided to wash my hands first as it look dirty .
that moment i look into the mirror !
i saw something weird and scary !
a leg that is stuck on the flushing button !
i was so scare that i stun there ,
not moving nor screaming...
until i turn back fast to see
whether its real there's leg stuck on the flushing button ,
but it doesnt have it !
my face turn pale and quickly use the toilet
and boom out .
i saw three girls ,
they came in
and was laughing happily .
i wanted to tell them what had happen
but my mouth just stop me from saying..
until they went in to the cubicle which i mention there's , ya...
something strange happening .
no sound inside
and
no commotion !
i tried to open the door ,
and guess what i saw .
a girl was getting drag into the toilet bowl !
omgosh !
i faster help her
and suddenly they forced me go out with a scary tone !
when i quickly walked out from the toilet ,
a really really strange thing happen again .
a lady with short hair ,
wearing a black dress ,
smiling very fake ,
with a blink of an eye on her ,
he face look so fake !!
when i walk to where it just keep following me !
and i cant even get an exit !!!
that moment i felt so scare
and was trying to cry out ,
but cant .
while i was trying to find an exit ,
the lady had suddenly disappear .
and where i am standing is at the east coast beach .
wind continued blowing at me .
after i closed my eyes again ,
the flashback came into my mind again !
when i open my eyes ,
i was at another place .
a shopping mall's arcade with some of my friends .
which is so oh gosh ?
after having fun with my friends ,
i decided to go home first .
while i was alone ,
the flashback keep returns !
reached home ,
i quickly find my parent
and told them what had happen .
due to my instinct...
the lady was standing right behind them .
she stopped me from saying it out !!!!!!
i was froze ,
trying to move ,
it cant !
and it was like NOT AGAIN !
---------------END OF THE NIGTMARE---------------
another part of my dream is not really scary but interesting .
hmms ,
but i am tired of typing already .
look me out to ask for my another part then :)
♥ Thursday, May 13, 2010 @ 5/13/2010 03:22:00 PM
wow ,
thats amazing .
totally !
Camp Rock 2 will be out on September 3 ??!
OMGOSH !
That would be great !
lets go catch it when it out !
cant wait to watch it ! :D
Heheh .
getting crazy over "This Is Me" song huh ?
haha :D
alright ,
i going to grab my earpiece
&
listen again !
WE ROCK ON \m/ !
♥ Monday, May 10, 2010 @ 5/10/2010 07:45:00 PM
Hoohoo !
study with who ?
study with someone again :)
haha .
love love <3
bye xD
lazy update .
♥ Saturday, May 8, 2010 @ 5/08/2010 11:01:00 AM
♥ Friday, May 7, 2010 @ 5/07/2010 07:43:00 PM
Hahahaha .
today funny lah .
i text baby de message ,
i could just laugh it when i read it .
while i drinking my water ,
i read the message i replied ,
i laugh till the water
SPIT IT OUT !
like merlion hahaha !
laugh die me le .
then 4pm went to baby's house study .
i memorised the wave-cut platform formation already ^^
i realise that my memory power went low..
because last time when i try to memorise ,
i can just memorise it for about few minutes !
now ,
i cant .
i tried and tried ,
it just cannot !
oh gosh .
i want back my own memory again !
my own memory !
actually of course its my own memory ,
just mean that i want my memory that i had like last time !
maybe ,
my memory card seems to be full ?
not sure .
well ,
today mid-year exams test
mathematics and social studies .
for mathematics ,
i could do for the first few pages
but
until behind ,
i cannot make it .
teacher had cheated my feelings .
i not it was easy..
but al last i find out that ,
it is actually not easy at all !
alright .
for social studies ,
i could do some
but i dont really know how to do uh .
dont know why too..
when i finish my question 1 (c) ,
my hand suddenly pain till very badly !
i feel like asking for an extension time ,
but confirm can't de .
anyway ,
i gonna fail these subjects .
if my social studies fail ,
my geography 100% kena drag too !
because its a combined humanities !
rawr .
whatever liaos .
burbyes blogger :D
♥ Thursday, May 6, 2010 @ 5/06/2010 06:26:00 PM
today school per normal .end school ,study with friends till 2.45pm .mr tay finally came and we could study again .his teaching process was fast and i am able to catch up :)laughs .i prefer mr tay teach ,rather then my math teacher teach norhs .mr tay could teach fast and smooth .hmms ,i gonna go back to my studies le .social studies & mathematics -.-it driving me crazy !!
♥ Wednesday, May 5, 2010 @ 5/05/2010 03:57:00 PM
going study le .
very sleepy seyhs .
seriously i am feeling stress now .
because alot things need to study ,
and memorise !!
oh nooooooo..
how am i going to catch up like this .
not much time left..
whatever ,
bye..-.-"
♥ Monday, May 3, 2010 @ 5/03/2010 12:07:00 PM
♥ @ 5/03/2010 11:26:00 AM
we are born to be together baobei:D
life is always so bright.
life is always full of challenges.
life is always made up by you.
life is always a thing that brought you out.
life is always try to get you in troubles too.
life is always a never ending stories.
life is always contain about you and your loves one.
life is always an image of you.
life is always a path that full of obstacles.
life is always very dangerous if you did wrong things.
life is always have a ending if you are dead.
life is always full of happiness if you are happy.
life is always full of sadness if you are depressed.
life is always full of cheerfulness if you are cheerful enough.
life is always a GAME!
Beware what you do :)
Min♥
♥ Sunday, May 2, 2010 @ 5/02/2010 09:02:00 PM
haha ,
everything is fine now .
im back to normal le !
very funny ,
got a bear bear
which i named it as
"bibi" :)
i was shocked when
he gave it to me .
took le ,
and gave him another chance :)
he go played the westlife song...-.-
while i am reading his letters .
anyway ,
i really cannot see him
blaming himself
nor
hurting himself lor !
never sleep enough too !
tell him go sleep ,
he dont want..
rawr!
alright .
today i went out ,
very fun !
wore same dress with my baobei sister :D
she so funny lah .
we went to tiong bahru ,
and watched "ip man" :)
quite nice actually .
hehe .
because they fight fight very funny .
and their actions and tone very funny too .
after the movie ,
we went to pasir ris .
took neoprint ,
and it was damn nice !
because we wore the same dress mah !
hmms ,
quite many things happened .
:D
Bye !
LOVE !! <3
♥ Saturday, May 1, 2010 @ 5/01/2010 11:16:00 PM
anyway ,
alot things had happen today ,
which made me no mood .
so my post will be...
you will know if you read it .
phew ,
let me just start like this .
i am really really
hate myself .
but i can't hate myself
as
baobei said want to hate herself too..
i dont want baobei to hate herself alright ?
although i had broke up with him ,
i will stand up and be strong too !
i wont wei le this jiu weak de :)
although lah ,
i really still love him ,
but no choice .
he wont know..
he also wont understand me..
he wont know what i am thinking..
he wont know how much i had being hurt..
he wont know what i will do if i am sad..
he wont know i will be very sad if he said something that hurt me..
he wont even know my character is what..
he wont be able to tell what he had given me i guess..
he wont make me happy anyway if he said all those hurtful things..
all i know is ,
my baobei is still the best .
had shared so much memories with baobei ,
and she is only the one who know more about me !
whenever i am down ,
she tried to cheer me up !
eventhough sometime we fight for something ,
or angry for something ,
we will just pulled through!
thick and thin!
i really appreciate to have baobei this sister !
if she is a guy ,
i confirm love her dao yao si !
still remember the memories at secondary one life .
and the life we had all days since we met!
i love you very much my best baobei !
SISTER FOREVER & EVER ♥!
Love you lots <3
just wanted to tell you ,
i am okay already .
tml outing..
i will just take it as a journey of my life ,
my challenge !
i dont know why i am like this you know .
i am always a person who dont know ,
how to comfort people !
how to cheer people out !
how to make people laugh !
i hate it whenever people who are sad ,
which i dont know how to react !
i really hate it .
so i am just a people which is no one !
sigh .
alright ,
hope baobei will be with me everytimes !
be with me till the end !
until we die !
promise me ,
okay ?
bu yao yin wei you le partner jiu bu li wo oh ! ^^
LOVE YA ! ♥
Muackies !
HUIMIN ;