I may smile and be nice to you. But I could also fake a smile to you.
Yes, I'm an ordinary girl but I do what I like and don't care what others might say.
People come and go. So I have to let go of this.
Not forgetting how I love pikachu so much! Their ear just look like a bunny and the two red cheeks make pikachu so adorable! To be honest, I don't watch Pokemon show. I just love it when I come across this cute yellow thing. I admit I can't leave without them when I sleep.
Start thinking.
♥ Tuesday, November 20, 2012 @ 11/20/2012 02:54:00 PM
It's Christmas soon in another one month plus. Anyone celebrating Christmas Day? :) . I'm not going to celebrate as usual. Days passes just like this. & 2012 will end soon. One by one coming into my life and one by one leaving from my life. Had used to it. Trying to recall what had happened this year. Well, a lot things happened in just a blink of eye. Without noticing, it's already November. Class test, exams, all coming and stress me up. Still remember the first day of H.nitec, I am busy finding friends in my class and hoping to get some friends with me. I also remember that I cried a lot while I am on my way home as I find it tough to get a long with the class. After a few weeks, I start struggling on the upcoming common assessment, etc. Then few more months, I get to be close with my cliques but some things happened and we get into separate ways. Trying to stable a friendship is quite difficult sometime. You got to give in, agree with things, trust your friend and if you never get to do it? Then you're dead. Because friendship will just break into the air and there goes to being alone again. This is life, you see. I appreciate my friends and love ones. Because without them, I can't survive till now. Although there are times that we can't manage to share what we want to say and explain but then there will also have time we will forget about it. Well, I think that is common. As people will get to feel irritated if there are too many problems going around in life. Like friendship, family matters or even relationship problems? All these things are happening and make things so complicated. So what if we keep torturing ourselves? No one will know if you are keep torturing yourself. Just get into the right track and start yourself afresh. This is the only thing you can do and overcome it. Yes, there will sure be memories hanging inside your mind and will never forget about it. But those are already the past. Just remain it as memories and not to hope that those moments can repeat in your life again. If you have the thinking of hoping those memories can be repeat in your life again, then too bad. Such things won't happen so easily. So, just face the reality and walk out the new beginning.
Stay tune.
Disappointment
♥ Monday, November 19, 2012 @ 11/19/2012 11:55:00 PM
Do you ever have disappointment?
Everyone in their life have disappointment either is you, yourself disappoint other people or you are disappointed in people or maybe disappointed of yourself. By stating a few, you let people trusted you so easily and yet you let people lose trust in you. Not only that, sometime, you are disappointed of yourself as you always fail in doing something in your life.
Give it a new start and ending
Things will change. People change at all time. We start a new beginning and end with a new ending. Simply mean that we can only strive to work hard if we wants something. We can't just sit there and wait for the things we want to find us. They can't. If we continue to work hard for it and never fail to give up, we will be able to see some improvements in it. As people say, hard work pay off.
STAY TUNE.
I'm not me.
♥ Wednesday, November 14, 2012 @ 11/14/2012 09:31:00 PM
What’s the point in screaming? No ones listening anyway.
Sometimes I feel like no one cares. Sometimes I feel like no one is there. Sometimes I want to kill myself.
Sometimes I think I need some help. Sometimes I feel like I’m alone. Sometimes I’m in an empty zone. Sometimes I feel like I’m not alive. Sometimes I wonder if I’m deprived. Sometimes I think the world should end. Sometimes I think I have no friends. Sometimes I want to make them see that sometimes I wish I wasn't me…I’m often silent when I am screaming inside.
I'm already not me. I have already forgotten who I am. Every single time, hiding what had happen to me from my family as I know if I told them, nothing will change. Think a lot and cried a lot when bathing a lot of time. Telling myself that crying isn't any solution. The only solution is to stand up right and face the reality. Think positive. But? I can't do it at all. I always thought I am not weak enough and be able to cheer people up. End up, I can't even do it. Well, that's my life. What can I do? I am trying to face the reality and wanted to walk through the pain, fears. Can't possibly end up in this way. I dislike it, seriously!!! Why am I worrying for people instead of myself? Maybe people will think I'm lying and I really don't give a damn if you gonna say anything about me. But better don't let me know you are talking about me. This will make me feel better I guess. I am just saying. I really care for anyone... But couldn't show at all. A LOT OF "BUTs". What the hell is happening to me. GEN, YOU GOT TO WAKE UP. Stop caring.
- I'm sick of myself. Really tired of myself already. If this continue, I guess my life will ruin with a lot of stuffs. I must really cure myself. But first thing first, why am I always like this? I really want to find the answer. Can all these things stop as soon as possible? Shall stop ranting here now. If I do, it sure take days to type it out. Byes.
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