I may smile and be nice to you. But I could also fake a smile to you.
Yes, I'm an ordinary girl but I do what I like and don't care what others might say.
People come and go. So I have to let go of this.
Not forgetting how I love pikachu so much! Their ear just look like a bunny and the two red cheeks make pikachu so adorable! To be honest, I don't watch Pokemon show. I just love it when I come across this cute yellow thing. I admit I can't leave without them when I sleep.
♥ Tuesday, March 31, 2015 @ 3/31/2015 03:35:00 PM
People tend to find someone to rely on, but when the person you used to rely no longer there anymore, it will take a very long time to regain back your strength again.
You will never know how important that person is until he/she left. Because only that time you will want to cherish those time being together, miss those conversation you all used to have, those help you receive.
could you be the one
who I can rely on?
I really want to know what are you actually thinking. Are you those person who actually treat everyone the same, and make people get the wrong meaning? Are you those person who I can trust? Too unreal. You are just another type of person I met once before. Making me getting hallucination. No yes, I don't know if I should continue. Continue to contact you or to stop contacting you and let's remain as stranger. Oh, wait. I should say we are stranger now actually. We don't usually hang out, don't usually get to talk ftf, don't usually... We just "want some company". A person who can find to talk to when we're bored. I guess?
"Remaining conversation is hard, because we are not close."
Actually, I really thought we could be friend. Just friend. No other meaning, motive, chance. Maybe you're still not awake yet, and one day, you may realise.
为什么人终是要有痛苦才能得到快乐呢?为什么人认识彼此后,终有一天都要分离呢?
painful goodbyes,
I can't.
Thankful
♥ Sunday, March 29, 2015 @ 3/29/2015 02:20:00 PM
Sir, may you rest in peace. Although I still can't believe that you have left us, but I believe you will always be in our heart, our great man who built Singapore into a better place. I am proud to be Singaporean and will always be. Thank you, sir.
Thanks Mr Lee Kuan Yew!
#活到老, 学到老
1923-2015
29th Mar
♥ Friday, March 27, 2015 @ 3/27/2015 07:17:00 PM
戏的剧情,不能跟现实中比。
♥ Wednesday, March 25, 2015 @ 3/25/2015 07:34:00 PM
我也好想谈恋爱哦!
但,怕被伤害。
被伤害的过程很幸苦,痛苦。
如果你不够勇敢,不够成熟,
我劝你还是乖乖的羡慕别人の幸福吧!
你懂吗。。。每次看戏时,
有那些浪漫的剧情,就会想,
现实中,会那么浪漫吗?
会这么的幸福吗?
手牵着手,就等于在一起吗?
Thoughts (6)
♥ @ 3/25/2015 12:11:00 AM
It's funny how one person can come into your life and somehow ruin your lifestyle. Ruin? How say? This is because they slowly get involved in your life, and change your mood easily, up and down. I'm not saying a particular person but it happen most of the time when someone came into my life. Anything you do able to let you think of that person. Yes, anything. Doesn't mean you've feeling towards him, but is because the things you did, said to him can actually make you think of that person. Probably, one can be a player and you might be acting with the player. (Not good in putting words to describe what I'm trying to say, but somehow you should get it) . I hope, I am not the one who get "cheated". Purely just friend.
Promise is a big word.
Careful with what you've promised.
#nowplaying - Ni Yao De Bu Shi Wo
♥ Saturday, March 14, 2015 @ 3/14/2015 02:55:00 AM
Yay, went Sentosa today (Friday, 13th) and noticed quite a lot of things have changed within one year. The last time I went there is for my CCA I think. & really miss those time helping up. Although, now in poly, I didn't join any CCA event yet, but I think I will definitely miss my ITE times still. The opportunities. Actually, there are good and bad memories I had there. Mostly good? I hope there will be more better memories built rather than bad one. Because whenever I went to that particular place, flashback came. Uh..., and I hate flashbacks a lot. Especially the bad one. Even if it was a happy one, and no longer get to experience it again. This time round, I get to walk a little bit more further in, in the "Sentosa Nature Discovery", thanks to someone huh. Pretty scary still, imagine, those ants kept crawling here and there, insects everywhere 😓 . Seeing people who aren't scare of those, and my feeling is like 😡 , oh why. There are many 'first time' experience in life but depending who actually accompanied you. I don't want to continue anymore... but let me share with you what I've bought today, and yes, three cute notebooks! There goes my $6... & also ended off a wonderful movie with my family, "The Frogmen".
👣 我们会变成陌生人吗?
Future?
♥ Thursday, March 12, 2015 @ 3/12/2015 05:02:00 PM
Say it is okay, but then, whenever we cry is the time we are truthfully hurt.
Sigh, it is always hard to explain. I'm turning 21 soon but I still didn't change to be independent or something. I am really afraid of my future. What will my future be? What will I be? Now, I still can't open up to people, and always admire people who can communicate, speak so well. Readers, please teach me to be brave enough to face this world. Brave enough to meet new people. Brave enough to accept. Brave enough to be confident. Time to change, really.
watch too much regarding love story,
and there are too many sad issues.
Thoughts (5)
♥ Tuesday, March 10, 2015 @ 3/10/2015 12:47:00 PM
I don't like the fact that people can affect me so much. But why? Appetite from bad to worst and I don't even know if this was the reason. & probably the worries are nothing. Can I just rewind the time and not knowing you? I will be glad if we didn't know each other back then because I hate this feeling of being put as "your entertainer". You left when you found someone who could entertain you. Please, it's hurt.
Courage
♥ Monday, March 9, 2015 @ 3/09/2015 01:54:00 PM
So, this few days, I came to think about how to delete memories that I wouldn't want to keep. Some memories are really meant to be forget but it's hard. I told myself that it is easy, just close the app, clear all the conversation, and that's it. But after doing that, will the things happen to just disappear straight away from my mind? No. Therefore, I struggled and didn't try deleting the conversation. Well, I guess I need some courage for the first move, as in, to delete the conversation in order for me to get into the "next stage" right? Which is healing. I swear I hate this particular stage because it is the hardest part for me to get rid. Hardest part for me to control the thoughts. I am always afraid to meet new people and people who gave me those "memories". When you want to meet new friend, you must have the courage to say "Hi". & follow by some interaction, and stuffs. So, the same thing goes to saying "Bye". Like saying goodbye forever. We have to be more brave to accept the facts that people may just leave/drift apart anytime. Be ready to go through the cycle again.
"It's really funny how a sad song can affect your mood so much when you are feeling down.
But a sad song can't affect your mood when you're feeling happy." -gen
- drinking my milk and thinking if I should stop
this conversation between us before getting hurt when we say 'goodbye'.
♥ Saturday, March 7, 2015 @ 3/07/2015 03:32:00 AM
We all have one bestfriend which is your heart.
Thoughts (4)
♥ Friday, March 6, 2015 @ 3/06/2015 01:40:00 AM
I believe guys love girls who are cheerful, easy to get along with, know how to joke around, cook, say sweet stuffs, be friendly, cute, good at almost everything, and more. But then, I am not the kind of girl. When I am growing up, I tend to think a lot and also admire girls who can do well in everything or anything. They are just so perfect that guys will love. This is why I don't really like to go out because whenever I saw people who can handle things quickly, I will feel useless. Not that I am being negatively, But I'm just stating the fact. Who wouldn't want to be good, being people happy pill, who is 人见人爱 in everyone eyes? After listing the things, I find that I can't compare with other girls, especially most of my friends. They know more than me, understand more than me.
I want to help myself, and the only person who can help me is still me.
Thoughts (3)
♥ Thursday, March 5, 2015 @ 3/05/2015 08:30:00 PM
Guys who actually too social can make people misunderstand I guess. Or maybe it was me who think it's weird as for others, it's normal. Well, I find that guys who are too social will make me feel uncomfortable too for example keep chat with you, stand near you or something. But there is good and bad things perhaps? Good thing because they are more friendly in a way where you do not need to be so afraid of them. As in easier to hang around with I guess? Because they probably are the people who can make you laugh easily. & for the bad thing is that if he approached this girl who need extra help, need someone who support her, comfort her, the girl might slowly develop this weird feeling to that guy. Not saying anyone here. But well, it is weird when 'love' comes. When you love someone, you feel hurt easily from whatever things he/she do, for example, him/her getting near to girls/guys, remember? because he/she is too social, and you start to get jealous and many more problems may arise. Therefore, I remind everyone here to stay strong and calm for not getting so easily feel attached with a person because of the way he/she treated you. They might treat others the same. Think twice before you clear your feelings.
Smile
♥ Wednesday, March 4, 2015 @ 3/04/2015 01:04:00 AM
"We should learn how to smile to say goodbye"
Because it is not easy to handle all the pain by yourself, when everything comes to the end, & never return. This is why you should forget the past and also don't forget to smile and face it. Remember my 3 points. Smiling is good as:
1. This can make you feel happy.
2. This can make others happy.
3. This can help you to relieve stress.
I decided to smile as I believe there is no harm by smiling. If you have to choose between smiling and crying, which will you choose?
- A smile in your face can
bring others laughter.
Pain
♥ Tuesday, March 3, 2015 @ 3/03/2015 09:51:00 PM
I really hate to cry but when I cry, is when I really cannot take it. The feeling is so hurt. Hurt till I just want to cry. Have been controlling since weeks ago, and now I can't. I told myself to stay strong again because someone told me to be strong, and after a cry, I have to wipe off my tears and smile again. Some people gave me strength to stay strong again, but some people just broke the wall I been building.
- you asked if it was because of you,
actually, I don't know.
Feeling
♥ @ 3/03/2015 08:49:00 PM
Today, I used the money that you fold as an amulet. I know it's funny because I can actually kept this for so long. & the feeling seems to be just too weird. Well, time to use it and shall not think anymore.
Thoughts (2)
♥ @ 3/03/2015 01:32:00 AM
"The feeling of being loved feels good. But do you ever tried question yourself
whether if you are serious about that person or just relying them?"
To me, I love to rely people a lot. Because I am unable to get things done alone. I feel that I am useless, and can't did a better job like how others are. I always dream about having a good relationship, even if the person I love is poor, but he work hard for me, can't bear to see me die from hunger, give me encouragement everytime when I'm down, tell me that I am good enough in his eyes, and I will succeed one day, and love me for who I am. Those sweet relationship will only happen in drama, and in reality, anything bad might happen between you and your partner. & the feeling of breaking apart is really terrible and heart aching. Well, relying people is the same feeling. Same feeling when you felt apart with the person you love relying on. Time after time, you think that the whole world treat you badly, and you start to over-think a lot. You started to lose trust, stop yourself from being controlled by your surrounding family and friends, and start to spend time alone, feeling lost. Emotionally. The feeling you get will only fade when someone tried to pull you up from the huge well, saving you from hurting yourself, help you. You start to rely that person again, and you slowly forget the pain you been through. After a certain cycle, you tend to think when is the last time you depend on yourself, and when is the last time you ever tried doing something successfully by yourself? I don't know if relying will slowly develop feeling for someone, or I am just used to rely on people.
midnight thoughts.
Thoughts
♥ Monday, March 2, 2015 @ 3/02/2015 07:30:00 PM
It's better to stay as friend, because you won't get hurt that easily.