I may smile and be nice to you. But I could also fake a smile to you.
Yes, I'm an ordinary girl but I do what I like and don't care what others might say.
People come and go. So I have to let go of this.
Not forgetting how I love pikachu so much! Their ear just look like a bunny and the two red cheeks make pikachu so adorable! To be honest, I don't watch Pokemon show. I just love it when I come across this cute yellow thing. I admit I can't leave without them when I sleep.
I've lost my smile.
♥ Monday, October 14, 2013 @ 10/14/2013 07:56:00 PM
好想哭…真的受不了!
Even if I share my problems to people, it won't help anymore. They might find me annoying because I can't bring laughters but complaining my thoughts and more... I have already lost my smiles, my soul. I really don't know how to continue my life anymore. Sorry people. I will stop contacting anyone for a moment. I already lost my hope. Just let me die.
Pain in me
♥ Saturday, October 12, 2013 @ 10/12/2013 12:53:00 PM
People think a lot. They think more when they are alone. If we can stop thinking back the past, stop worrying about the future, life will be more easy. But sometime, we need to think. Think when we are making a choice, whether it is right or wrong. Everyone want to make a right choice. Who want to make a wrong choice which can't even turn back the time to decide on it again?
"If we have a positive thinking...'
The terrible feeling when you are afraid to voice out what you want to say but you can't. If you are afraid to voice out, then you should endure. I used to let friends control me and help me make decision everytime. But now I became smarter, make the decision that you prefer to. You can ask others to give opinion but not following what they tell you to do. It's your own life not their life. If you can't live your own life like you want it to, it will be tiring. Make the right choice and move on. Yes...we always know how to say but it is really difficult to do it... How to get courage? I can't buy it.
I tell myself not to get used by people in my life. When you start to get used to it, and they are gone for long, what will happen is you will start to get hurt, can't manage your own life easily, not independent enough, not able to forget those memories you all have been through, not being to live easily. Not not not. It is better to rely on yourself than relying on people.
Random post.
When you thought you are going to gain a friend, but actually you are going to lose a friend.
♥ Friday, October 4, 2013 @ 10/04/2013 07:58:00 AM
Trying hard to do something but can't manage to get it.
Yes, that's me.
Actually, I'm used to it. Friends come and go. True friends stay. Even if they know how you really are, they still concern about you. They still worry for you. They won't forget about you. They don't need to contact everyday. They will be there for you if you need them. They accompany you. This is what true friends are. In my life, i met a lot of people. Bad and good. I make a lot of friends. Friends like... "hi-bye friends" , "online friends" , "accompanied friends" , "status friends", etc. I don't expect to make a lot of friends. I just need a friend who can understand me. Accept who I am. I have health problems, and may be super annoying as I rant a lot. You can see that my blog always rant about life most of the time. I trust people easily and get hurt after that. But that's me.
I got once, twice or maybe a few times, have the urge to send a text to all of my friends, telling them not to act in front of me. If possible, just don't talk to me. Being my friend is really not fun. I fear of people. Its been a week. First week of school just pass like a bullet train. I don't see anything to please anyone. If anyone who can't stand me, just don't need to pretend. Just tell me. But you can't blame me for not being more fun enough. I shouldn't be complaining too much...
Emotional.