I may smile and be nice to you. But I could also fake a smile to you.
Yes, I'm an ordinary girl but I do what I like and don't care what others might say.
People come and go. So I have to let go of this.
Not forgetting how I love pikachu so much! Their ear just look like a bunny and the two red cheeks make pikachu so adorable! To be honest, I don't watch Pokemon show. I just love it when I come across this cute yellow thing. I admit I can't leave without them when I sleep.
♥ Wednesday, December 29, 2010 @ 12/29/2010 09:59:00 PM
leave me alone.
you thought you what , why do i need to give a damn of explaining things to you ?
ask so much nia .
dont know why , this year suay much .
fine lor , i stop contacting you too .
you go far far la .
let the ship sink shi mah ?
ok la .
also not real ship .
what for care so much .
zz ,
cant tolerate anymore .
dont know or dont understand me just get lost and stay away from me .
not going treat you as ggbff anymore .
thats really true , i also dont know you so much , what for be ggbff huh . .
want gl me , come la .
like i scare nia .
so many troubles find me .
i not afraid anymore okay .
ask question ask rubbish .
last time asked or said one thing i really dont like liao , now still come ask this .
my fault or your fault ?
sorry never change , still say so much sorry for ?
i dont know why i blog this for what .
like i care like this .
haha ?
bye la . . .
dont ever comes sms me le .
==
treat it as i today suay dao dont how .
shall emo now .
♥ Sunday, December 26, 2010 @ 12/26/2010 02:24:00 PM
A very late Merry Christmas to you people :D
read my letters from laopo and other peoples de while keeping the christmas card from edith cousin :) yes , yesterday went to grandma's house and visit her . really hope she can get better each day. had a stroll with cousins then later it started to rains heavily so we took the shelter linked to another block to another block, until we saw a mini mart that is still open. because quite a lot had already closed their shops. yea, thats the end of the story. hohoho.
♥ Friday, December 24, 2010 @ 12/24/2010 03:28:00 PM
Love laopo ;
today played audi and bought a platform . hehe . christmas eve today . Happy Christmas Eve everyone :D
♥ Thursday, December 23, 2010 @ 12/23/2010 12:18:00 PM
Its time now.
well , had been editing me and laopo blogskin yesterday and today i woke up and edit some . hmm , love laopo a lot , teehee . alright , now i going to visit my grandma already as she discharged on tuesday . burbyes !
genevievewhite ;
♥ Wednesday, December 22, 2010 @ 12/22/2010 11:09:00 PM
Hehes!
Xiiaobeii here!!
read laopo post!
just wanna hack in her acct and post XD
hehes! love her damn lot nah!
edit so many photo tgt!
This are for her!!
End of story~ byesse!
♥ @ 12/22/2010 10:08:00 PM
Facing my laptop, staring at it...
yawns, i have nothing to do nowadays. what to do? suggestions please D: i really gonna rot at home? no way man. alright, done finish blogging for me and laopo's blog. now i going to continue blog mine :D phew, so breathless now. as i typed damn fast for that blog, now for my blog, BLANK PAGE IN MY BRAIN! what a joke..== okay, thats really touching and funny post by my laopo, i read finish, my feeling now really felt different. dont know what chemical she add to me. LOL. send virus from there and let me feels so cool now ;x . okok , enough for my randomness . so today finally i know how to edit using photoscape . had realised theres this program to edit earlier but dont know how use it . after laopo told me and show me what she edited , i suddenly want to try edit with that program again . so , i told her to send me as i lazy download from internet . haha ! yup . i managed to edit already , at last ! the above is what i edited :) i put it for my facebook's display picture , mwhahaha . alright , i really going crazy now . i also edit my screenshot for audi , wanna see ?
stay tuned till next post then :)
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♥ Monday, December 20, 2010 @ 12/20/2010 03:29:00 PM
my cries are for you, girl.
this post might be long and i really wish that my wishes may comes true. seriously, i have a lot of wishes. but i wanna put the important wish at the first place.
first wish - be with the same class as my dearest sister baobei laopo! ♥ do you know how serious i want to be with her forever?the time we spends together are awesome. even though we do quarrels in small things and big things, we will be back together again. what i want now is just a simple wish. one simple wish. be with her forever and never go separate ways. next year i will be studying in ITE. thats not the end of my study life yet as i promised myself i will work hard on it and carry on to study in poly. i really wish i can be in the same class with laopo so that we can study together, have recess together, go school together, go home together and have fun together. in my life, laopo, Jacqueline Low Geok Sock is one girl that touches my life. not anyone. she brings me laughters, sadness, worries, etc. she comfort and cheers me up when i am sad in anythings. she never fail to make me laughs. but laopo, if one day you fail to make me laugh, you must really understand how sad i feel. sometimes, i never let you know i am upset because i don't you to make so much effort and cheer my up. i put on fake smiles for you. during the days and time you create the PowerPoint slide to me and sent me by msn, i look forward to what you had did. after i saw and read the slide you had make, my tears started to drip suddenly. because all the photos and stories brings back a lot of memories. the memories that i can't forget and wanna get back to the past. from kids to sister, from sister to baobei and from baobei to laopo. the years we had spend together and the gaps we separated. between the gaps, the god in the end also brings us back to be together after primary school life. i was in the secondary school's hall siting on the technical class. you told me that you was shocked. yes, indeed. but now after we took the n level result, i am so close to get to higher nitec. just short of one point. as you said, you tried to search for me when you get your result, i was at the back of the hall. my emotions was so complicated. i do not know how to express how i felt. neither do i want to be happy or sad. i controlled my tears and went to find you. i asked you if we had the same courses for ITE to choose. indeed we had the same courses but next part we gotta worry is if we will be in the same class next year for ITE. anyway, i will not forget what you did to me after you know i get to go ITE with you. you suddenly hug me and make my spectacles going drop. thats totally very dramatic and i feel as if theres an item knocked on my head. the feeling is indescribable. yes it is. your tears are about to drip but the scene you made let us laugh. thats good too if not we will be crying. thinking back now, i smiled. i really hope god could let us be in the same school, same course and same class. really. our story will not end unless we are dead, okay? :) i love you forever. i am not a lesbian anyway! don't misunderstand me.
second wish - i hope i can have a happy family. even happy than now. i am not asking too much. i just feel that sometimes my parents doesn't understand me enough. they do not know what i want. can't blame them either as i am the one who always keep things to myself. even bad things happen, i will choose to solve them myself. i am a person who don't like any helps from others. i just feel weird if i let others help me. sometimes, i have the urge to suicide. but whenever i think until my family and laopo, i controlled myself and stopped myself from doing it. i admit i am really crazy sometime which you all won't understand. anyway, why do i want to have a happy family? because this link to third wish as well. which i will be stating later on after i typed finish this second wish details. ever since i broke up with my ex, i started to feel more weaker. i told myself to forget him but i can't. slowly, i managed to erase him in my life. but what yesterday happened to me when i quarreling with a guy on sms, he let me recall back what i had quarrel with my ex last time. he spoiled my family day outing at the Singapore Zoo. he used vulgarities and it hurts me damn lot. i swear. he spoiled my mood! i even went to the toilet and cried. why does he so cruel!! i really can't forget that day! i can't. i don't know why my tears started to drip whenever i recalled the past he treated me. is that a memories? i don't want this kind of memories. it feels awful! the song brings back memories. so thats why i need a happy family to cover up my scar. i need them to cover my scar asap! please..
third wish - is what i had explained the reason for my third wish. meaning my wish for the third one is to quickly forget him and erase him in my life. i seriously seriously need to erase it. although i hate him now, but the memories still in my brain! ;eeks.
forth wish - i want a pikachu a lot a lot ! it accompany me on the journey of my life. i talked to pikachu whenever i felt sad or happy. whenever i talked to her, i feel more happy. my mummy had helped to sew my pikachu a lot of times. and now pikachu have more injuries again. soon she going to surgery again :(( it makes me feel double sad. sigh. i have so much to say but my mind doesn't seems to be working now. was listening to slow songs while typing this. omggg. -controlling my tears again now-
i am done for typing. actually i have a lot more to say but i really can't continue already. yesterday the things that happened make me really fed up. now, i gotta end my post here. burbyes readers.
♥ Sunday, December 19, 2010 @ 12/19/2010 11:55:00 PM
"I IN LOVE WITH YOU"
OMG. First thing first for tomorrow is, i going to post a LONG POST.
I shall off my laptop now. if not going get scolding. BYE !
NOW SUPER BURNING CAN!!!
GOT ONE GUY MAKE ME PEKCHEK!
RAWR!
Lucky i went to me and laopo's own blog to view her post.
I TOUCHED AND SOB!
OMDG!
♥ Tuesday, December 14, 2010 @ 12/14/2010 06:07:00 PM
Journey in my life ;
Times passes...
i dont know what to post. it seems like this blog just like an extra online page for me. anyway, this few days i had not been messaging anyone. not even my laopo. my gan di and GGBFF also never message. dont know why i am not interested in many things now. such as drama, movies. but feel like hanging out with friends outside! or maybe go out and come home late. i hate staying at home. nothing to do.. at home i can only play auditionsea, talesrunner and viwawa. nothing much. aww, suddenly i miss my laopo! she editing photos now :) ilovehersomuch. she made a powerpoint, so cute and nice! i must store it in my phone, definitely! 17th dec, the N' level result will be out. i am totally nervous and scare i cant pass! i shouldnt be worry now and panic now. no use anymore. sigh.
♥ Sunday, December 12, 2010 @ 12/12/2010 06:38:00 PM
Sian now at bedok interchnge. Feel like going back tampines..
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♥ Friday, December 10, 2010 @ 12/10/2010 07:36:00 PM
now at mrt so i type first , but wait till hime i will end my post and post it. went to watch rapunzel 3D with laopo and friends. quite funny. after that went to novena awhile just to walk. now heading back to tampines and slack :) eating at madison~ played truth or dare with them. damn funny!!!
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Hate.My.Life
♥ @ 12/10/2010 09:13:00 AM
I really hate my family, i cant tolerate anymore. My life really full with total rubbish and when can i stop? It wont stop unless i die.. Scariness and darkness everywhere around me. Thats really afraid me... I really got the urge to end my life straight now. I really HATE people shouting at ME in public. Im not a kid anymore, please. Who can understand my feeling? Nobody i guess. Thats why teenagers attended suicides. This may be their family background problems. I've no reason to live in this world i guess. Why am i be born here? I have alot of questions seriously.. My imaginations always appears with things like zombies or something. Is that a phobia of being scared? No right? IDK. Its really scare me to hell and it was suffering. Bloods around me everywhere, anywhere. I cannot take this kind of life. My life is so miserable. I really wish i am an adult now so i can go out to the city and earn money, be independent, be more mature and buy a house to stay in by myself. I am totally strangers with my family now. Thats my thoughts. Because i like to hang out outside more than hanging out with family. May i know why? Is my life a living world? Its so pathetic.
i can't control my tears. i just hate you to the core.
♥ Thursday, December 9, 2010 @ 12/09/2010 06:42:00 PM
i am not what you are thinking, you are just getting too over. i seriously hate you. why didnt you think for me? i am already a teenager. i am not your 3-5 years old kid already. you like to make scene in public till how long? can't you just think about my feelings? i cried in bus do you know that? never. i can't stop wiping my tears. it's too much. i really hate you. you thought you buy me things that i like is already enough? i tell you, i dont care what you buy for me. i just want face. you used my phone i dont care because thats not important. but if you shout at ME in the public..i will definitely stop talking to you. i wont be so nice anymore. you are totally over!
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♥ Friday, December 3, 2010 @ 12/03/2010 07:04:00 PM
sigh .
i dont know why whenever i am sick , i dont dare to tell my parent anymore .
can only act like i am not sick .
its the third day of decemeber already ,
im gonna be happy .
but it seems difficult .
two more weeks , n level results will announce .
and i have no confident i can pass .
not even a percentage of confidence .
i shall accept it .
this is my life .
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♥ Wednesday, December 1, 2010 @ 12/01/2010 06:03:00 PM
so sians . this few days just audi , play with pika , watch drama , talesrunner and do slide shows . i wanna go out but dk when . . .
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