Today i cried again, sigh.. i dont wanna live in a world of crying.. i feel like dying sometime. i want to be happy, but how..?

first day reach there around 3am. queue for check-in hotel number and went to marybrown and eat. had porridge etc. bought sushi and eat too. until 7am, went to see sunrise. around 10am we went for hotel check-in. we manage to get back the same room that we like. 27901. corner room. after checking in, we went to chin swee temple. so ya that temple. after that went to window-shopping.

second day, went to outdoor and indoor theme park. had wasted the money, because we didn't play much. we only ride the pirate ship, Antique Car, 4D Motion Master and Spinner. Overall, we just eat eat and eat. it was cloudy too. and started to rain heavily and i get drenched!

third day, walkwalk at mushroom farm.

forth day is the day we going back. took 9am bus back. reach singapore around 4pm+

meet laopo as well at night around 7pm.

doesn't seems to get closer with you. oh heck. nothing to blog. thats totally random.

going genting tonight and i already get bored of it..it seems like genting is my second home huh. this time going for 4days 3nights. cant connect with baobei laopo already on these days. laopo can only get to go overseas with me maybe when she reach 21years old? thats super longgg. i really can't wait for that day. i wish with all my heart to be with you always, and never ever being separated. once we quarrel or argue, there's probably mistakens or something. i want to work with you and be your working partners or anything that we could stick together. when i need help, you will sure comes and rescue me. but when you in deep trouble or in a stressing mood, i can't help any..i dont know why i am so..sigh.. i am a troublemaker too. okay enough for this. i shall now go prepare already. i hope that god will never separate US.

:(

" wo hao ai ni ♥ ! "

to my dearest laopo,

i know how he feels and how you feels too. who dont want to hurt the opposite right? but relationships things really do hurt.. if one likes the opposite, and another dont really wants to accept it, the one that like you sure hurts alot. no one will like to take relationships as a play. only people that had not mature yet. we know that if you dont wanna explains things properly to the ones that wanna find chances to woo you, in the end he will hurt more, definitely for sure. you know i know one. so as well tell him now rather than dragging this story so long. i had once regretted and hurt before. cry and cant get back anything that is possible. but laopo, you must thinks too. i dont want you to stress over about relationships, all right? we put this topic aside first..until..i came back from genting and meet you up then say. if anythings happen while i at genting, you can text me. spam me or whatever you like. i will reply you asap when i came back. but promise me first, not to stress over this things yet. actually i had talked with andy when you and ed at the room. he actually hmms..i will tell you when we meet up ok? i will miss you as well, just how i miss my pikachu. yesterday chalet had ended. when you come at 4nov in the early morning, i was happy die. but when it came to noon, i knew that the time will pass even faster. but i had enjoyed much. able to ton still when i was awaiting for the day to reach when i reach chalet first with my family. whole night didn't get to sleep, maybe i am too excited to see laopo. when everyone came on the 4nov, we talked all those and crapsss. at night around 8plus to 9pm, Andy performed magics to us. my relatives joined in as well :) had fun watching the performance. 9pm, we prepared to leave the chalet and go ehub to buy our movie tickets. we actually planned to watch megamind but we watched "The Rise Of Mummy" instead. i rate that movie 2/10. not nice at all. during the movie, my whole leg can't move and sit properly. unable to walk properly after the movie ended. had trouble baobei laopo. im such a troublemaker. before watching the movie it already started until i cannot take it, i cried. my heart or ribcage problem again. each time pain, each time cry. i really can't control my tears nowadays. i could control it everytime. whenever i in front of friends or family. i can't control when it really hurts me alot. really. i can't bear the pain anymore.. i tried to smile and laugh with them when we having a fun chats or saying stories to prevent spirits. around 3am watched tv until all of them had came out and go to the beach about 6am plus. should go back later than them, so that i could watch the sky, the sea and the sea side really keeps me better. no lies. this few days i was acting like a kid. maybe i feel like going back to childhood. it would be better. no worries or stress but joys. children takes lies as happiness in such way..but when we slowly grow up, it turns to pains. we must learn to face it. yes. i am going to face the pains i suffered. i can do it. i wish too.. forget it. time passes really really fast. if only i have a time machine, that will be good. tomorrow is the day i leaving singapore again. going genting for 4days 3nights. ohdamn. laopo...*cries* my dad giving me a hard decision. i can't enjoy yet. maybe i will take what he suggest that is, take private O's. maybe i can try isn't it? ya.. alright, i shall stop here. really tired having so much time typing a long post. byes and take care. laopo, i will love you forever. until the sky falls, the disaster starts. aini.