my cries are for you, girl.
this post might be long and i really wish that my wishes may comes true. seriously, i have a lot of wishes. but i wanna put the important wish at the first place.
first wish - be with the same class as my dearest sister baobei laopo! ♥ do you know how serious i want to be with her forever?the time we spends together are awesome. even though we do quarrels in small things and big things, we will be back together again. what i want now is just a simple wish. one simple wish. be with her forever and never go separate ways. next year i will be studying in ITE. thats not the end of my study life yet as i promised myself i will work hard on it and carry on to study in poly. i really wish i can be in the same class with laopo so that we can study together, have recess together, go school together, go home together and have fun together. in my life, laopo, Jacqueline Low Geok Sock is one girl that touches my life. not anyone. she brings me laughters, sadness, worries, etc. she comfort and cheers me up when i am sad in anythings. she never fail to make me laughs. but laopo, if one day you fail to make me laugh, you must really understand how sad i feel. sometimes, i never let you know i am upset because i don't you to make so much effort and cheer my up. i put on fake smiles for you. during the days and time you create the PowerPoint slide to me and sent me by msn, i look forward to what you had did. after i saw and read the slide you had make, my tears started to drip suddenly. because all the photos and stories brings back a lot of memories. the memories that i can't forget and wanna get back to the past. from kids to sister, from sister to baobei and from baobei to laopo. the years we had spend together and the gaps we separated. between the gaps, the god in the end also brings us back to be together after primary school life. i was in the secondary school's hall siting on the technical class. you told me that you was shocked. yes, indeed. but now after we took the n level result, i am so close to get to higher nitec. just short of one point. as you said, you tried to search for me when you get your result, i was at the back of the hall. my emotions was so complicated. i do not know how to express how i felt. neither do i want to be happy or sad. i controlled my tears and went to find you. i asked you if we had the same courses for ITE to choose. indeed we had the same courses but next part we gotta worry is if we will be in the same class next year for ITE. anyway, i will not forget what you did to me after you know i get to go ITE with you. you suddenly hug me and make my spectacles going drop. thats totally very dramatic and i feel as if theres an item knocked on my head. the feeling is indescribable. yes it is. your tears are about to drip but the scene you made let us laugh. thats good too if not we will be crying. thinking back now, i smiled. i really hope god could let us be in the same school, same course and same class. really. our story will not end unless we are dead, okay? :) i love you forever. i am not a lesbian anyway! don't misunderstand me.
second wish - i hope i can have a happy family. even happy than now. i am not asking too much. i just feel that sometimes my parents doesn't understand me enough. they do not know what i want. can't blame them either as i am the one who always keep things to myself. even bad things happen, i will choose to solve them myself. i am a person who don't like any helps from others. i just feel weird if i let others help me. sometimes, i have the urge to suicide. but whenever i think until my family and laopo, i controlled myself and stopped myself from doing it. i admit i am really crazy sometime which you all won't understand. anyway, why do i want to have a happy family? because this link to third wish as well. which i will be stating later on after i typed finish this second wish details. ever since i broke up with my ex, i started to feel more weaker. i told myself to forget him but i can't. slowly, i managed to erase him in my life. but what yesterday happened to me when i quarreling with a guy on sms, he let me recall back what i had quarrel with my ex last time. he spoiled my family day outing at the Singapore Zoo. he used vulgarities and it hurts me damn lot. i swear. he spoiled my mood! i even went to the toilet and cried. why does he so cruel!! i really can't forget that day! i can't. i don't know why my tears started to drip whenever i recalled the past he treated me. is that a memories? i don't want this kind of memories. it feels awful! the song brings back memories. so thats why i need a happy family to cover up my scar. i need them to cover my scar asap! please..
third wish - is what i had explained the reason for my third wish. meaning my wish for the third one is to quickly forget him and erase him in my life. i seriously seriously need to erase it. although i hate him now, but the memories still in my brain! ;eeks.
forth wish - i want a pikachu a lot a lot ! it accompany me on the journey of my life. i talked to pikachu whenever i felt sad or happy. whenever i talked to her, i feel more happy. my mummy had helped to sew my pikachu a lot of times. and now pikachu have more injuries again. soon she going to surgery again :(( it makes me feel double sad. sigh. i have so much to say but my mind doesn't seems to be working now. was listening to slow songs while typing this. omggg. -controlling my tears again now-
i am done for typing. actually i have a lot more to say but i really can't continue already. yesterday the things that happened make me really fed up. now, i gotta end my post here. burbyes readers.
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