I may smile and be nice to you. But I could also fake a smile to you.
Yes, I'm an ordinary girl but I do what I like and don't care what others might say.
People come and go. So I have to let go of this.
Not forgetting how I love pikachu so much! Their ear just look like a bunny and the two red cheeks make pikachu so adorable! To be honest, I don't watch Pokemon show. I just love it when I come across this cute yellow thing. I admit I can't leave without them when I sleep.
♥ Wednesday, March 14, 2012 @ 3/14/2012 04:12:00 PM
Things change. People change. But memories will never change.
Didn't know that I can be so sad till now. I wonder why. Why am I always like this? I forced myself to go out yesterday and make me sick even worst. Trying to drink water and eat but I can't. A lot things had changed in my life. I can't even know what are the things that changed now. Maybe some. We can't change our memories. It will always stay inside us...
I never felt so complicated in my life before. Yet I still have to continue smiling.
I smile, laugh, talk, response but I am still sad. My mood just went terrible and it get worst. I keep think of things which I shouldn't be thinking at all. I wish I am pretty enough, brave enough, have courage to talk and be more outgoing enough. But I can't. I am just so quiet and didn't dare to face people. Why people tend to look for beauty instead? Why can't I have a bit of courage to talk with people? I can only wait people to talk to me then I start to talk. For those who know me and I tell you before, I seriously hate myself. I can't be perfect and I tend to stress myself and hurt myself if I can't take the pain.
I'm just an ordinary girl.
Even though I am not rich, not pretty, not having good grades in studies, I am still myself. I can be hyper but you won't see my real me. I really hate myself for not that good. Basically, in this blog post, I've been whining, rambling all stuffs. Bear with me. Sorry.
"I LOVE HATE OUTINGS."
I don't know why I hate outings now. In the first place, I really love to hang out with my love ones to go out and chat, etc. But now? Outing just make me suffer. Singapore just too small. Although there might be a lot of places I never been before but still, no one will bring me. My back will start to pain when I sit too long or stand too long. That's part of the reason why I don't like to go out too. Yesterday thunder so loud. Was dreaming a very scary scene. It's scary to me because someone gonna steal money from my family and then also my dad don't know why want call police catch grandma too. A lot dreams yesterday. Then suddenly a loud thunder roar and make me scream like crazy and cry... I hate thunders that roar such a sudden!
P.S. Happy 11th Month Anniversary to you, les partner. ♥♥♥
I may not be a good person to you but to be truth to you, my mood seriously bad. I will start to complain a lot of things and be angry with anyone easily. It's tough to hang out with me but yet I can't change myself from being that way. We didn't get to hang out much nowadays because you were so busy working. Love you still, girl.
Photos taken yesterday.

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