"The feeling of being loved feels good. But do you ever tried question yourself 

whether if you are serious about that person or just relying them?"

To me, I love to rely people a lot. Because I am unable to get things done alone. I feel that I am useless, and can't did a better job like how others are. I always dream about having a good relationship, even if the person I love is poor, but he work hard for me, can't bear to see me die from hunger, give me encouragement everytime when I'm down, tell me that I am good enough in his eyes, and I will succeed one day, and love me for who I am. Those sweet relationship will only happen in drama, and in reality, anything bad might happen between you and your partner. & the feeling of breaking apart is really terrible and heart aching. Well, relying people is the same feeling. Same feeling when you felt apart with the person you love relying on. Time after time, you think that the whole world treat you badly, and you start to over-think a lot. You started to lose trust, stop yourself from being controlled by your surrounding family and friends, and start to spend time alone, feeling lost. Emotionally. The feeling you get will only fade when someone tried to pull you up from the huge well, saving you from hurting yourself, help you. You start to rely that person again, and you slowly forget the pain you been through. After a certain cycle, you tend to think when is the last time you depend on yourself, and when is the last time you ever tried doing something successfully by yourself? I don't know if relying will slowly develop feeling for someone, or I am just used to rely on people.

midnight thoughts.