I may smile and be nice to you. But I could also fake a smile to you.
Yes, I'm an ordinary girl but I do what I like and don't care what others might say.
People come and go. So I have to let go of this.
Not forgetting how I love pikachu so much! Their ear just look like a bunny and the two red cheeks make pikachu so adorable! To be honest, I don't watch Pokemon show. I just love it when I come across this cute yellow thing. I admit I can't leave without them when I sleep.

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♥ Wednesday, April 1, 2015 @ 4/01/2015 12:11:00 PM
I have too many problems, house rules (which no one may think until), barriers issues which I can't be open up, not good in studies, many phobias, and many more. This lead to a negative me who always thought I could be positive enough.
I don't know what people may think of me. Maybe some may say, "Hey, this girl is really disgusting. She isn't good enough and she thought she could expect guys too like her and waste time on her?"
Helloo..., please. I'm not. I don't want people to make the wrong idea of me. I am an average girl who want to find happiness too. But things aren't that simple, you get it?
People asked if I given them chance. Not say chance, I don't even dare to give people any chance actually. Because I scare I will hurt them in the end. What if there is no happy ending? Maybe, maybe in life, not everything have their happy ending but I really don't wish people upset or hurt because of me. I am afraid to tell out my feelings sometimes too.
I don't wish to repeat the history again because by repeating the history, you will scare the same bad thing might happen again, which probably gives you "nightmare". When it happen once, you will try to be really careful the other time as you scare the situation may be the same.
Really.
Although I'm turning 21 soon but my mind is still stubborn enough to be mature. Mature in outside but immature in inside still... I tend to keep things to myself because I felt that it is safer than sharing it out. People tell me not to bottle things to myself but do you really mean that? Do you actually share your things easily to anyone or your best friends? Some things yes maybe, but some issues might not be...
I always wanted to have the perfect relationship just like how drama have. But in drama, before or during their relationship, there are too many obstacles/challenges been given to them. To me, those challenges are my barriers too. As in, I afraid to get bad ending you know... and also, I have a very big communication issue. My closest friend may understand that...
Probably, if I ever come across someone that I like, I will still prefer us to remain as friend because friend may last but not for bgr. (Overthink)
Have too many things to say, but I shall stop here first.
Goodbye.
I guess after what I've said,
We may no longer be friend anymore.
May no longer chat everyday.
May no longer face each other anymore.
& things I don't want it to happen,
may happen soon......